relationship with a kite

it's thurday, 9:56pm, 26 july

today is a normal day, thought that i could have gone out with friends but i found out that my circle of friends is just like this. close friend, yes i have, 2 of my best buddy! but if you said true friend other then my 2 buddy... i don't have any... its very sad as i compare to last time in my secondary school years or even in ITE, those friendship that hardly can be lost when we gather together!

Anyway, thats not the point that i blog in today and now. At around 7:15pm, it's dinner time so i went in the kitchen to hunt for food! but as i expected, NOTHING! that's my home. Been thinking if i eat instant noodle for 3 meals, will i get gall stones? so i took the shuttle bus down to northpoint to have my dinner. As i walk around northpoint, my mind went blank out of the sudden, don't know what should i eat... so i think back and i finally know why she is so angry cause just now when i'm at northpoint, i suddenly turn angry cause i can't decide what to eat!

i'm a person that easily content with my food, anything that can be eaten and fill the stomach i will just eat it. but just now, i find no food even there is a lot of stalls around me. Find no joy of eating happily, still i seat at subway and have their turkey breast sandwich then out of the sudden, i order a foot long thinking she will be there to share with me, but as i happily pay i find no one eating with me. i very miss the time we have no money but eating very happily.

i do not have a loving family, when i started off with her because she is a person that willing to love me more & more, then i remember i use to pray that "for a person that will whole heartedly love me and take care of me". i finally found one, but i don't think the time is right, but i want to spent my last week with her flying kite, why? As i think, our life is like a kite, as we flew upwards God is consistently pulling us back so that we can fly higher in the sky and further! as you know, flying a kite is hard from at the start cause have to find the wind direction and have to maintain a consistent flow of movement. In a relationship, is like a kite too as we can't pull too tight to your another half cause if it's too stiff the kite will fall, if it's too lose it will fly away. at the same time we have to wait for the wind to come as it comes and time is right, it will fly even higher then we expected.

A beautiful hope A beautiful start

Regards

Karlson